THOTFull Thoughts to ATL and my Devilish Divas

 I almost posted this on  youtube channel , but I decided why make unfriends and bad attention at youtube when I can bring all of that to my own little venue.
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Inspired by this endless almost not yet groovy, boomy juicy in my goosey mix. (Millionaire Matchmakerese)
 Turn down for what.
Take a gander 10 hours man. Imagine if you have one of those sound activate personal masseuse devices.
yes I am keeping this PG to G rated.  But Old G's heres a hint ok ?
But you all know what I am trying to say.

and at the end of the day Turn down for what???
Ok now 10 hours girl you can have yourself a honey moon, a vow renewal and well you see where I am going with this.

I am not going to link to one of those sites that sell that device but it might be a interesting challenge
10 hours....

By the way, was anyone ever curious what was that Raver Jelly Blue French tickling glowy Light saber on Girlfriends Guide to Divorce?? I mean I spent several weeks trying to find one that looked just like that to no avail.
I want to say Andy Cohen dude did you procure a special one of edition?

 anyways this is what I have to say to my Ladies of the ATL
shout out ...

I will say this.. 10 hours. Bedroom Kandy music vibe. Can you say second honeymoon ok hint hint get it in now Mr. & Mrs. Tucker,  Pon the replay Cynthia Peter and you too Claudia Miss Blank has left her body. Thanks for that THOT NayNay * hugs and love  forever to Cherie LaNayNay*.  Porsha shake that perfect tail feather and Demetria Drop it like the hotness that you be, Phaedra Goddess of legal matters, thanks for being a Belle. Serious big Love to all them THOTful housewives, Only fun shade and big pun. Dare ya to read this outloud my Family Andy in da the Club house. And yes I did go there.  *triple snap*
Bring it  Reel House Britches ;) Love ya thanks for a great 7th Season. I guess ya'll done open the Seventh Seal of Approval. Best wishes and love.....

 Come on now Kandy Koated Nights.. Tucker Inc..  Lets have Baby Tucker in 8th season. God Willing.
 

Oh Miss Moore I did not forget you.  The incomparable Kenya... darling you get a whole paragraph all to yourself. How else can we honor the Queen of Twirl. curtsey your majesties. Life is Twirling on so you should do a version in your series call Twirl Down for What? now you know us Twirl girls got to spin it back round right. Maybe that can be your second commercial? ;) I am sure you and your BFF so cute he is can make it very funny.
 Whether we spin to the right pose for the camera or we are twirling a baton. Yes I went there and I did do that.  No Shade.. sweety I miss my baton. I had one of those extra long ones too. and my brothers could not resist breaking it in half to use for nunchakus. see what ya missed out on. I know that's what happens when you are the only girl in a house of boys. They set ya straight., on the unimportance of girl stuff. and even a twirl baton can become a battle weapon. The End of my Twirl Career with a stick and a beginning of my twirl of the pen in writing :)
 Holla! and love to all the Housewives Series. and ahh don't worry. The other Series ladies will get some carefully crafted Commentarian puns.

Yes this thirst is real!

Broken Footed Not Broken Hearted , The Crutch Girl Rant

The Crutch GIRL RANT!!

I have come to a point where I must relase the rant valve in a constructive and reflective manner.

The last weekend in July First of August 2014 , at about 1:47 AM I fell down my stairs after my ankle gave out.
I started Physical Therapy (PT) 2 weeks ago and it helps but the swelling has not gone away Daily I try to un stick my stuck ankle I do my exercises, in fact I am doing them now.
Ultimately, ankle still hurts, the swelling has not gone a way, the red line has gone away but the tendons, bones and joints are  hurting, my toes have stabbing pains. half numb,accross the toes, and very numb along the outside curve where the outside curve the ankle is still swollen 50% more than normal.
I have taken the painpills, the anti imflammatories , Positive visualation and 6 weeks I am still in the boot and having the worst sprain in my life.  Sleep has always been difficult due to other previous injuries from falls and car accidents. But I do not know why this feels like the worst I have been going to PT for 2 weeks, I have a great team of therapists we started STIM electro therapy but honestly nothing Is making the fluid un fill the ankle, I have joked with the therapists, Maybe Medieval Medical leeches are not a bad idea maybe that might take the bad fluids out.

Now if anyone knows me. I might be a biologist but I have a serious bug critter issue. I have never been the creepy crawly biologist. I like bugs to be in pictures, on video, but not live and in Life's living colorized 3 D in my face. Generally I do no try to kill insects except disease bearing ones like Flies,  but even them I warn them verbally.  whether its a ok me or you or one of my Banshee screams that can literally wake the dead. Yes that happened when I was sitting on the commode last week and a spider just came out from the edge of my blanket on my bed and ya know what. I let one of those Horror movie killer screams and for a moment the spider was stunned. it was a CT wood spider known for its poisonous bite
And when I screamed at it. it tried to jump but it was so disoriented at the shock wave of sound I hurled at it it oculd not seam to know which direction to go in and it was shaking,itseemd totrutpgt  g           t     
. I have never seen a spider shake. I mean I am the one shaking . This time Both of us were shaking.
 at this point I had to take it out
armed with my mothers back scratcher I lashed out in as fast nas I could staccato chopping action and made a minced meal out of the spider in fact. God Rest his or hers spidery soul.
I found another spider like that on my desk. I dispatched it under neath the tissue it was hiding under with a tall heavy thick walled glass cup. I have gotten braver, but I still the little freak out wigged out dance afterwards.
I do not dislike spiders but I was once traumatized by a white spider that bit me on my ear and made me very sick one night when I was about 3 years old. I nearly died from the venom  I have been terrorized by them since., and not crawling on me or biting me.   I still have serious issues when it comes to spiders. I am better I do not hysterically scream but I still freak out.  I can put limited weight on my ankle. Work out plans are non existent.  I missed the warrior dash, spartan race and the electric run and hartford marathon and any thon that involves moving accross terrain or obstables as a free bodied person.   Everyone i know have not talked much, i am literally not in a frame of mind of feeling very social. iam returning to being 16 years old and hobbling on crutches. same ankle where i had the tumor way back then. in fact when it feel it felt exactly like it did 22 years ago and almost to the month the same time. frame . fI mean what gives is this going to be a every 22 year thing i sprain my right ankle beyond belief and it literally is like a wrecking ball to my life.  Right now I  can't do much, I do have a pilates 2-3 lb ball I pick up every other day and stretch shoulders and upper body.  and i also have my cute pink 5 lb kettle ball but being not being able to stand for any length of time and having to wear this lovely 8lb boot let me tell you this is a trip and half and do strengthening stretches.   Stressed in pain annoyed miserable unhappy . but those feelings about the new chronic pain I have to suffer through. Can anyone be so unlucky. I mean its not just accidents or cancer its all of the above. I know some say you suffer so you can heaving in th next life but sorry unless you are in this pain , you really understand it that concept seems like a crock of malarkey. capisce. how much heaven am I going to get for suffering so much? it beter be a the right hand of god because mondieu this is just too much. and and then 2 weekends in a row I get the nasties male customers one would not want to talk to. One day I know this too shall past. Seriously though, it really seems like i am in a whirl pool of passing and its not gas. and when am I going to get to the other side of this. I would love to have a freaking break ya know.  I know everyone suffers but gosh I have suffered enough for a dozen people. I have more problems than anyone i have ever met i mean no one i have ever met in the meeting of people have had more un initiated drama in their lives. I try to do good i get drama i do nothing, i get drama, i work i get drama. Where is my academy award at least oscars translates into dollars and cents. I would like to have one point in life where I can have some happiness at all instead of this crapola.  NO I haven't giv
Perhaps its not Badluck. I was planning a trip abroaden up. I may feel annoyed at the continued setbacks but I am waging Positive energy on my badluck. my glass is totally full. You know why because its half filled with water and half filled with the atmospheric gases so I have a full glass. I guess that's another aspect of this it would be nice to have my glas filled with the things I want to fill it with not just what luck , god gins and mens have decide to lay upon my path.

Auld Lang Syne..The Heart Chakra, and concepts about love and Loss

I have not posted to my blog in a long while. today I feel the urge I need to share something with not just my friend to whom this post is directed. but I want to share this with the larger world.
This is for all those who have suffered losses.
I send this with light and love to all.

Getting over something is truly relative. the more you grieve can often have a direct proportion to the meaning the loss had to your life. Loosing a child means losing a future , what children that child would have brought to your life. what son in law they would have had , all of those things are enhancements to ones living. enhancements to one's life experience. losing that is immeasurable.  Losing a marriage is also like that. you lose future experiences future children whether born or adopted, also loss of extended relatives. so having both losses in a year is hard to fathom, hard to go through.  Because these are both a loss of LOVE.  Love does make us blind but learning to view through the heart chakra not so much through the concept of love is a better way of approaching love. In love you can love someone and also know its ok they are with someone else because on an essential level you and them are not alligned for the highest good for either of you.   You have to be strong enough to live with out a love that is not right, not every love should be explored in the context of sexuality, some things must be approached a purely spiritual level. Spiritual beings must keep love in balance not let it overwhelm our senses and sensibility.  Parental love is all encompassing from the moment that child is born and brought to your breast its the love you defend you sacrifice mind body and soul for its the deepest of all loves. Most people who do not get to be parents, find it hard to conceive and understand this love. and its also the worst love to have broken because its as if the child was like a second sun and the warmth and love revolving around this sun has been obliterated. and your galaxy is destroyed wasteland spinning out of control and you have become an ice planet where nothing can seem to grow. all hope , all the thousands of futures are gone in a heartbeat. This type of loss is un endurable. you can not endure it with out a great change to your mental outlook and visual perspective you come out of this loss quite changed.  This type of love is also Blinding.  Your heart chakra has been greatly challenged.   You have to remember all parents never want to let their children go. not for any reason. we hold on to the aspect that the child is an extension of our life essence. an Extension of very life. they are an expression an avatar if you will of our selves.  we see our selves in them, we see our genes though them they are like a time capsule of those family members both present and from the past.  and ourselves to our own parents were also that type of reflection. That type of avatar to them. and those that came before us. Remember we do not live as an island. One lives as an micro ecosystem. in a macro ecosystem and what we bring into the microecosystem effects every aspect of the system.  and the larger ecosystem migrates other micro ecosystems to the sphere of our systems and depending on the vibration or energy of these externals systems it can enhance or be destructive. Sometimes that right energy increases our territory (there is a prayer for that in the book of jabez) or sometimes it shrinks our territory. Right now you have had a shrinkage of territory and now having a great flood and you have gone into your ark to preserve what you can, an unfortunately you loss some key beings that you want to have in this world, these are heart breaking losses,however their time was up and not destined to be apart of this next aspect of your journey. Darling girl,  when the water subsides you will have a new land to begin anew upon. a new earth to plant in, and roots with which to grow in.  so remember to really evaluate spiritually in reflection what you plant in your garden so it creates a beautiful place to be for yourself and those who want to visit your ecosystem.  Review all of this through your heart chakra, you will find healing and rebalance your love.   I hope you can take some solace in that in the end we always go back to the source and we reunite with the loves that we want most to be with at the journey's end. Until then, view things through the gaze of love and understand  when these sad and tragic events occur, things happen for the highest good. things end and begin for the highest good.

"Sometimes to create, one must first destroy. '
 David 8 -Prometheus (2012)

I hope your healing continues and progresses bit by bit each day.  sending you sisterly love, hugs, and hope.

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